Heart clutched up

I don't know how much more my system can take of eating only a meal a day consisting of a small snack.
Food just doesn't agree with me when misery occupies my whole body. If your reading this right now.. I'm writing this before i sleep and yeah, I'm sleeping early, I want to still call you my baby.. my everything.. your all I'll ever want, you may want me to move on.. but things just don't work that way, its been a week and a half since we've been apart and I've died each day. I've wondered if you cared about our breakup and well.. i really hope i still occupy your heart and i know i make it hard but.. how can i not when I'm unable to connect with the girl i love anymore ?
You really mean the world to me.. to prove it ? I'd die for you.. wow i sound horribly emo and after reading your drafts its takes me back to the days when we were happy.. when we were able to let ourselves express our love
Adam Lambert - Whatya want from me .. ignore the title

Nowadays i know we both want to talk our hearts out to each other and all i want to do is hold you and buss with you... I've yet to find a way
I've found this very cute video on youtube but and yeah.. its put me to tears numerous times because of how it relates to whats happened to us, even as i'm typing this right now.. this song is being played..
I really hope you don't complain about your present from me, its from the heart and i remember that you said you liked those, BARE with it because i know its not the best thing in the world
For your bday i wanted to make it as special as possible because this is the first and ... well i wish it wasn't but might be the last bday i get to somewhat spend with you but i guess things haven't gone our way at all.
Me without You - Neyo

I really want us to work again, i know it'll take some time but.. i guess i don't want to disappear from your heart during these times at all.. i know if i was to say all this to you in person or online you'd be your stubborn self and close me off :T that's why this is the only way if your able to read this. Don't be all worried and such but I'm technically broke now after buying your bday and Christmas gift lol :x its alright, I'll survive :) as long as your happy, i can sell my yugioh cards !

My school grades are struggling nowadays but i hope yours is still up lol, i don't want us to be the reason why you've slacked babe.. and yeah i said it, i called you babe..
You might think this is easier for us both.. but we both know this isn't true, you might think by doing this I'll move on.. but it'll give me more time to miss you and you know that..
I don't want you to suffer either but.. only the good can overcome the bad.. we just had to give it some time, i don't want you to give up on us.. and inside i know you don't want to either...
NO PAIN NO GAIN
ahha it js seemed a bit funny to say :x like the word CHOLO lol

I love you forever. Lily xiao
From the guy who loves you enough to give you all of his world, Daniel Lin <3