A Drop in The Ocean

"A drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven. "

Another day has passed and marks another day i feel pain
Dreams I've had lately really took a toll on me, i would just wake up and check my phone and see if what i dreamt about really happened, in a way i feel better that the crap that happens in my dreams didn't happen, but that would mean waking up and realizing she isn't by my side anymore. It hurts a whole lot thinking about times i held her close and it hurts to know i cant hold her like that anymore.
In another hour or so I'll be going to the shore, just because i feel the need to sense that calmness and peacefulness i once felt whenever i was with her.
I've come to realize that she does need time to sort things out, and I'm willing to give her time because I'd literally wait forever for her, and I'd just wish she would hear what i have to say as well but time will tell...right ?
My philosophy a few days ago of " do or die " has been abandoned just because i know circumstances are totally different this time. As these days pass by i know we both would try to call out a distress call to each other but no one wants to reach out till something solidifies maybe ?
All that i can do is hope.